My life ~ July 19th 2009 ~

I finally graduated!!! Yesssss :D
Not really into graduation ceremony yet, need to wait for another 1 yr :(
Now I'm basically jobless and craving for jobs...
Do approach me if u came across any job vacancy for the position of civil engineer.

Life after my studies is not really intriguing. Most of my frens left Miri for good, went back to hometown. And how I miss them terribly. Sigh... Tomorrow I'll be going to school to get back my thesis, and asking for any advices from lecturers.

My life now? Great? It's truly excited to graduate after 4.5 yrs in school. Sigh, but due to some personal issues, my life has never been great after that. I miss school life seriously, I miss the late hours rushing for works, piles of assignments, 3 am Lutong Cafe and A1. Sigh, most of all, I miss him. :(

I'm still browsing and surfing for job vacancy of civil engineers anywhere, Singapore, Sabah, Sarawak, Brunei. Still waiting for replies and possible calls from any employers. Oh well, bless me best of luck so I can get out of this mind faster.

Being jobless makes me really think too much on negative sides, and makes me hurt someone a lot too. Sigh...

And I have no idea why my body seems to give ways after my studies, growing weaker, severe headache everyday (migrain I think), flu etc. Having more frequent disputes with siblings too, which basically irritates me when they keep on poking into my business. Sigh what a life as a jobless person.

他和她的故事

他说他很爱她
他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花
一切美得不像话
从朋友变成情人
她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底
真心溢满了甜蜜
时间看清一个人
开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人太蛮横
她开始悬着疑问
不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕
(谁爱谁)谁又流干了眼泪
(谁后悔)难分难舍太伤悲
(他爱谁)谁应该止住眼泪
(她心碎)谁又该干脆离开
(谁爱谁)谁又能反反覆覆
(谁后悔)谁在忍受着孤独
(谁了解)他退出她孤独爱得太盲目
他说他很爱她
他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花
一切美得不像话
从朋友变成情人
她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底
真心溢满了甜蜜
时间看清一个人
开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人太蛮横
她开始悬着疑问
不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕
(谁爱谁)谁又流干了眼泪
(谁后悔)难分难舍太伤悲
(他爱谁)谁应该止住眼泪
(她心碎)谁又该干脆离开
(谁爱谁)谁又能反反覆覆
(谁后悔)谁在忍受着孤独
(谁了解)他退出她孤独爱得太盲目
(谁爱谁)谁又流干了眼泪
(谁后悔)难分难舍太伤悲
(他爱谁)谁应该止住眼泪
(她心碎)谁又该干脆离开
(谁爱谁)谁又能反反覆覆
(谁后悔)谁在忍受着孤独
(谁了解)谁退出谁孤独谁不满足
(谁爱谁)谁又流干了眼泪
(谁后悔)难分难舍太伤悲
(他爱谁)谁应该止住眼泪
(她心碎)谁又该干脆离开
(谁爱谁)谁又能反反覆覆
(谁后悔)谁在忍受着孤独
(谁了解)他退出她孤独爱得太盲目

Emotionally depressed ...

Since the start of my new and final (hopefully) semester, I've been experiencing a few tough situations and still struggling through them.

My FYP problem, relationship problem, family problem and many more.
I know I may seem delighted as I'm when I'm wif u guys, but deep inside my heart, there's a misery of piercing every now and then.

I dun feel like I wanna disclose any of my problems in details to u guys, as each of them are of complicated cases. I can hardly breathe and feel indeed emotionally depressed everytime. When u see the smile in my face, do not be deceived by it, it's a fake one.

The matter is how long I can wait ...

I'm really tired ...